I have included this story by John Ronald Reuel Tolkien (to be found in The Tolkien Reader, Ballentine Books, New York, 1978, pp. 102 – 120) because I am sure that there are many people, like me, who look at their to-do list and wonder if they will complete it before God calls them Home. The story is a refreshing reminder by this amazing storyteller that God has everything in His hands.
There was once a little man called Niggle, who had a long
journey to make. He did not want to go, indeed the whole idea was distasteful
to him; but he could not get out of it. He knew he would have to start some
time, but he did not hurry with his preparations.
Niggle was a painter. Not a very successful one, partly
because he had many other things to do. Most of those things he thought were a
nuisance; but he did them fairly well, when he could not get out of them: which
(in his opinion) was far too often. The laws In his country were rather strict.
There were other hindrances, too. For one thing, he was sometimes idle, and did
nothing at all. For another, he was kind-hearted, in a way. You know the sort
of kind heart: it made him uncomfortable more often than it made him do
anything: and even when he did anything, it did not prevent him from grumbling,
losing his temper, and swearing (mostly to himself). All the same, it did land
him in a good many odd jobs for his neighbour, Mr. Parish, a man with a lame
leg. Occasionally he even helped other people from further off, if they came
and asked him to. Also, now and again, he remembered his journey, and began to
pack a few things in an ineffectual way:
at such times he did not paint very much.
He had a number of pictures on hand; most of them were too
large and ambitious for his skill. He was the sort of painter who can paint
leaves better than trees. He used to spend a long time on a single leaf, trying
to catch its shape, and its sheen, and the glistening of dewdrops on its edges.
Yet he wanted to paint a whole tree, with all its leaves in the same style, and
all of them different.
There was one picture in particular which bothered him. It
had begun with a leaf caught in the wind, and it became a tree; and the tree
grew, sending out innumerable branches, and thrusting out the most fantastic
roots. Strange birds came and settled on the twigs and had to be attended to.
Then all round the Tree, and behind it, through the gaps in the leaves and
boughs, a country began to open out; and there were glimpses of a forest
marching over the land, and of mountains tipped with snow. Niggle lost interest
in his other pictures; or else he took them and tacked them on to the edges of
his great picture. Soon the canvas became so large that he had to get a ladder;
and he ran up and down it, putting in a touch here, and rubbing out a patch
there. When people came to call, he seemed polite enough, though he fiddled a
little with the pencils on his desk. He listened to what they said, but
underneath he was thinking all the time about his big canvas, in the tall shed
that had been built for it out in his garden (on a plot where one he had grown
potatoes).
He could not get rid of his kind heart. “I wish I was more
strong-minded!” he sometimes said to himself, meaning that he wished other
people’s troubles did not make him feel uncomfortable. But for a long time he
was not seriously perturbed. “At any rate, I shall get this picture done, my
real picture, before I have to go on that wretched journey,” he used to say.
Yet he was beginning to see that he could not put off his start indefinitely.
The picture would have to stop growing and get finished.
One day, Niggle stood a little way off from his picture and
considered it with unusual attention and detachment. He could not make up his
mind what he thought about it, and wished he had some friend who would tell him
what to think. Actually it seemed to him wholly unsatisfactory, and yet very
lovely, the only really beautiful picture in the world. What he would have
liked at that moment would have been to see himself walk in, and slap him on
the back, and say (with obvious sincerity): “Absolutely magnificent! I see
exactly what you are getting at. Do get on with it, and don’t bother about
anything else! We will arrange for a public pension, so that you need not.”
However, there was no
public pension. And one thing he could see: it would need some concentration,
some work, hard uninterrupted work, to finish the picture; even at its
present size. He rolled up his sleeves, and began to concentrate. He tried for
several days not to bother about other things. But there came a tremendous crop
of interruptions. Things went wrong in his house; he had to go and serve on a
jury in the town; a distant friend fell ill; Mr. Parish was laid up with
lumbago; and visitors kept on coming. It was springtime, and they wanted a free
tea in the country: Niggle lived in a pleasant little house, miles away from
the town. He cursed them in his heart, but he could not deny that he had
invited them himself, away back in the winter, when he had not thought it an
“interruption” to visit the shops and have tea with acquaintances in the town.
He tried to harden his heart; but it was not a success. There were many things
that he had not the face to say no to, whether he thought them duties or
not; and there were some things he was compelled to do, whatever he thought.
Some of his visitors hinted that his garden was rather neglected, and that he
might get a visit from an Inspector. Very few of them knew about his picture,
of course; but if they had known, it would not have made much difference. I
doubt if they would have thought it mattered much. I dare say it was not really
a very good picture, though it might have some good passages. The Tree, at any
rate, was curious. Quite unique in its way. So was Niggle; though he was also a
very ordinary and rather silly little man.
At length Niggle’s time became really precious. His
acquaintances in the distant town began to remember that the little man had got
to make a troublesome journey and some began to calculate how long at the
latest he could put off starting. They wondered who would take his house, and
if the garden would be better kept.
The autumn came, very wet and windy. The little painter was
in his shed. He was up on the ladder, trying to catch the gleam of the
westering sun on the peak of a snow-mountain, which he had glimpsed just to the
left of the leafy tip of one of the Tree’s branches. He knew that he would have
to be leaving soon: perhaps early next year. He could only just get the picture
finished, and only so so, at that: there were some corners where he would not
have time now to do more than hint at what he wanted.
There was a knock at the door. “Come in!” he said sharply,
and climbed down the ladder. He stood on the floor twiddling his brush. It was
his neighbour, Parish: his only real neighbour, all other folk lived a long way
off. Still, he did not like the man very much: partly because he was so often
in trouble and in need of help; and also because he did not care about
painting, but was very critical about gardening. When Parish looked at Niggle’s
garden (which was often) he saw mostly weeds; and when he looked at Niggle’s
pictures (which was seldom) he saw only green and grey patches and black lines,
which seemed to him nonsensical. He did not mind mentioning the weeds (a
neighbourly duty), but he refrained from giving any opinion of the pictures. He
thought this was very kind, and he did not realise that, even if it was kind,
it was not kind enough. Help with the weeds (and perhaps praise for the
pictures) would have been better.
“Well, Parish, what is it?” said Niggle.
“I oughtn’t to interrupt you, I know,” said Parish (without
a glace at the picture). “You are very busy, I’m sure.”
Niggle had meant to say something like that himself, but he
had missed his chance. All he said was: “Yes.”
“But I have no one else to turn to,” said Parish.
“Quite so,” said Niggle with a sight: one of those sighs
that a private comment, but which are not made quite inaudible. “What can I do
for you?”
“My wife has been ill for some days, and I am getting
worried,” said Parish. “And the wind has blown half the tiles off my roof, and
water is pouring into the bedroom. I think I ought to get the doctor. And the
builders, too, only they take so long to come. I was wondering if you had any
wood and canvas you could spare, just to patch me up and see me through for a
day or two.” Now he did look at the picture.
“Dear, dear!” said Niggle. “You are unlucky. I hope
it is no more than a cold that your wife has got. I’ll come round presently,
and help you move the patient downstairs.”
“Thank you very much,” said Parish, rather coolly. “But it
is not a cold, it is a fever. I should not have bothered you for a cold. And my
wife is in bed downstairs already. I can’t get up and down with trays, not with
my leg. But I see you are busy. Sorry to have troubled you. I had rather hoped
you might have been able to spare the time to go for the doctor, seeing how I
am placed: and the builder too, if you really have no canvas to spare.”
“Of course,” said Niggle, although other words were in his
heart, which at the moment was merely soft without feeling at all kind. “I
could go. I’ll go if you are really worried.”
“I am worried, very worried. I wish I was not lame,” said
Parish.
So Niggle went. You see, it was awkward. Parish was his
neighbour, and everyone else a long way off. Niggle had a bicycle, and Parish
had not, and could not ride one. Parish had a lame leg, a genuine lame leg
which gave him a good deal of pain: that had to be remembered, as well as his
sour expression and whining voice. Of course, Niggle had a picture and barely
time to finish it. But it seemed that this was a thing that Parish had to
reckon with and not Niggle. Parish, however, did not reckon with pictures; and
Niggle could not alter that. “Curse it!” he said to himself, as he got out his
bicycle.
It was wet and windy, and daylight was waning. “No more work
for me today!” thought Niggle, and all the time he was riding, he was either
swearing to himself, or imagining the strokes of his brush on the mountain, and
on the spray of leaves beside it, that he had first imagined in the spring. His
fingers twitched on the handlebars. Now he was out of the shed, he saw exactly
the way in which to treat that shining spray which framed the distant vision of
the mountain. But he had a sinking feeling in his heart, a sort of fear that he
would never now get a chance to try it out.
Niggle found the doctor, and he left a note at the
builder’s. The office was shut, and the builder had gone home to his fireside.
Niggle got soaked to the skin, and caught a chill himself. The doctor did not
set out as promptly as Niggle had done. He arrived next day, which was quite
convenient for him, as by that time there were two patients to deal with, in
neighbouring houses. Niggle was in bed, with a high temperature, and marvellous
patterns of leaves and involved branches forming in his head and on the
ceiling. It did not comfort him to learn that Mrs. Parish had only had a cold,
and was getting up. He turned his face to the wall and buried himself in
leaves.
He remained in bed some time. The wind went on blowing. It
took away a good many more of Parish’s tiles, and some of Niggle’s as well: his
own roof began to leak. The builder did not come. Niggle did not care; not for
a day or two. Then he crawled out to look for some food (Niggle had no wife).
Parish did not come round: the rain had got into his leg and made it ache; and
his wife was busy mopping up water, and wondering if “that Mr. Niggle” had
forgotten to call at the builder’s. Had she seen any chance of borrowing
anything useful, she would have sent Parish round, leg or no leg; but she did
not, so Niggle was left to himself.
At the end of a week or so Niggle tottered out to his shed
again. He tried to climb the ladder, but it made his head giddy. He sat and
looked at the picture, but there were no patterns of leaves or visions of
mountains in his mind that day. He could have painted a far-off view of a sandy
desert, but he had not the energy.
Next day he felt a good deal better. He climbed the ladder
and began to paint. He had just begun to get into it again, when there came a
knock on the door.
“Damn!” said Niggle. But he might just as well have said
“Come in!” politely, for the door opened all the same. This time a very tall
man came in, a total stranger.
“This is a private studio,” said Niggle. “I’m busy. Go
away!”
“I am an Inspector of Houses,” said the man, holding up his
appointment card, so that Niggle on his ladder could see it.
“Oh!” he said.
“Your neighbour’s house is not satisfactory at all,” said
the Inspector.
“I know,” said Niggle. “I took a note to the builders a long
time ago, but they have never come. Then I have been ill.”
“I see,” said the Inspector. “But you are not ill now.”
“But I’m not a builder. Parish ought to make a complaint to
the Town Council, and get help from the Emergency Service.”
“They are busy with
worse damage than up here,” said the Inspector. “There has been a flood in the
valley, and many families are homeless. You should have helped your neighbour
to make temporary repairs and prevent the damage from getting more costly to
mend than necessary. That is the law. There is plenty of material here: canvas,
wood, waterproof paint.”
“Where?” asked Niggle indignantly.
“There!” said the Inspector, pointing to the picture.
“My picture!” exclaimed Niggle.
“I dare say it is,” said the Inspector. “But houses come
first. That is the law.”
“But I can’t…” Niggle said no more, for at that moment
another man came in. Very much like the Inspector he was, almost his double:
tall, dressed all in black.
“Come along!” he said. “I am the Driver.”
Niggle stumbled down the ladder. His fever seemed to have
come on again, and his head was swimming: he felt cold all over.
“Driver? Driver? “ he chattered. “Driver of what?” “You and
your carriage,” said the man. “The carriage was ordered long ago. It has come
at last. It is waiting. You start today on your journey, you know.”
“There now!” said the Inspector. “You’ll have to go; but
it’s a bad way to start on your journey, leaving your jobs undone. Still, we
can at least make some use of this canvas now.”
“Oh, dear!” said poor Niggle, beginning to weep. “And it’s
not, not even finished!”
“Not finished?” said the Driver. “Well, it’s finished with,
as far as you’re concerned, at any rate. Come along!”
Niggle went, quite quietly. The Driver gave him no time to
pack, saying that he ought to have done that before, and they would miss the
train; so all Niggle could do was to grab a little bag in the hall. He found
that it contained only a paint box and a small book of his own sketches:
neither food nor clothes. They caught the train all right. Niggle was feeling
tired and sleepy; he was hardly aware of what was going on when they bundled
him into his compartment. He did not care much: he had forgotten where he was
supposed to be going, or what he was going for. The train ran almost at once
into a dark tunnel.
Niggle woke up in a very large, dim railway station. A
Porter went along the platform shouting, but he was not shouting out the name
of the place; he was shouting Niggle!
Niggle got out in a hurry, and found that he had left his
little bag behind. He turned back, but the train had gone away.
“Ah, there you are!” said the Porter. “This way! What! No
luggage? You will have to go to the Workhouse.”
Niggle felt very ill, and fainted on the platform. They put
him in an ambulance and took him to the Workhouse Infirmary.
He did not like the treatment at all. The medicine they gave
him was bitter. The officials and attendants were unfriendly, silent and
strict; and he never saw anyone else, except a very severe doctor, who visited
him occasionally. It was more like being in a prison than in a hospital. He had
to work hard, at stated hours: at digging, carpentry, and painting bare boards
all one plain colour. He was never allowed outside, and the windows all looked
inwards. They kept him in the dark for hours at a stretch, “to do some
thinking,” they said. He lost count of time. He did not even begin to feel
better, not if that could be judged by whether he felt any pleasure in doing
anything. He did not, not even in getting into bed.
At first, during the first century or so (I am merely giving
his impressions), he used to worry aimlessly about the past. One thing he kept
on repeating to himself, as he lay in the dark: “I wish I had called on Parish
the first morning after the high winds began. I meant to. The first loose tiles
would have been easy to fix. Then Mrs. Parish might never have caught cold.
Then I should not have caught cold either. Then I should have had a week
longer!” But in time he forgot what it was that he had wanted a week longer
for. If he worries at all after that, it was about his jobs in the hospital. He
planned them out, thinking how quickly he could stop that board creaking, or
rehang that door, or mend that table-leg. Probably he really became rather
useful, though no one ever told him so. But that, of course, cannot have been
the reason why they kept the poor little man so long. They may have been waiting for him to get better, and
judging “better” by some odd medical standard of their own.
At any rate, poor Niggle got no pleasure out of life, not
what he had been used to call pleasure. He was certainly not amused. But it
could not be denied that he began to have a feeling of – well satisfaction:
bread rather than jam. He could take up a task the moment one bell rang, and
lay it aside promptly the moment the next one went, all tidy and ready to be
continued at the right time. He got through quite a lot in a day, now; he
finished small things off neatly. He had no “time of his own” (except alone in
his bed-call), and yet he was becoming master of his time; he began to know
just what he could do with it. There was no sense of rush. He was quieter
inside now, and at resting-time he could really rest.
Then suddenly they changed all his hours; they hardly let
him go to bed at all; they took him off carpentry altogether and kept him at
plain digging, day after day. He took it fairly well, It was a long while
before he even began to grope in the back of his mind for the curses that he
had practically forgotten. He went on digging, till his back seemed broken, his
hands were raw, and he felt that he could not manage another spadeful. Nobody
thanked him. But the doctor came and looked at him.
“Knock off!” he said. “Complete rest – in the dark.”
Niggle was lying in dark, resting completely; so that, as he
had not been either feeling or thinking at all, he might have been lying there
for hours or for years, as far as he could tell. But now he heard Voices: not
voices that he had ever heard before. There seemed to be a Medical Board, or
perhaps a Court of Inquiry, going on close at hand, in an adjoining room with
the door open, possibly, though he could not see any light.
“Now the Niggle case,” said a Voice, a severe voice, more
severe than a doctor’s.
“What was the matter with him?” said a Second Voice, a voice
that you might have called gentle, though it was not soft – it was a voice of
authority, and sounded at once hopeful and sad. “What was the matter with
Niggle? His heart was in the right place.”
“Yes, but it did not function properly,” said the First
Voice. “And his head was not screwed on tight enough; he hardly ever thought at
all. Look at the time he wasted, not even amusing himself! He never got ready
for his journey. He was moderately well-off, and yet he arrived here almost
destitute, and had to put in the paupers’ wing. A bad case, I am afraid. I
think he should stay some time yet.”
“It would not do him harm, perhaps,” said the Second Voice.
“But, of course, he is only a little man. He was never meant to be anything
very much; and he was never very strong. Let us look at the Records. Yes. There
are some favourable points, you know.”
“Perhaps,” said the Second Voice; “but very few that will
really bear examination.”
“Well,” said the Second Voice, “there are these. He was a
painter by nature. In a minor way, of course; still, a Leaf by Niggle has a
charm of its own. He took a great deal of pains with leaves, just for their own
sake. But he never thought that that made him important. There is note in the
Records of his pretending, even to himself, that it is excused his neglect of
things ordered by the law.”
“Then he should not have neglected so many,” said the First
Voice.
“All the same, he did answer a good many Calls.”
“A small percentage, mostly of the easier sort, and he
called those Interruptions. The Records are full of the word, together with a
lot of complaints and silly imprecations.”
“True; but they looked like interruptions to him, of course,
poor little man. And there is this: he never expected any Return, as so many of
his sort call it. There is the Parish case, the one that came in later. He was
Niggle’s neighbour, never did a stroke for him, and seldom showed any gratitude
at all. But there is no note in the Records that Niggle expected Parish’s
gratitude; he does not seem to have thought about it.”
“Yes, that is a point;” said the First Voice; “but rather
small. I think you will find Niggle often merely forgot. Things he had to do
for Parish he put out of his mind as a nuisance he had done with.”
“Still, there is this last report,” said the Second Voice;
“that wet bicycle-ride. I rather lay stress on that. It seems plain that this
was a genuine sacrifice: Niggle guessed that he was throwing away his last
chance with his picture, and he guessed; too, that Parish was worrying
unnecessarily.”
“I think you put it too strongly,” said the First Voice.
“But you have the last word. It is your task, of course, to put the best
interpretation on the facts. Sometimes they will bear it. What do you propose?”
“I think it is a case for a little gentle treatment,” said
the Second Voice.
Niggle thought that he had never heard anything so generous
as that Voice. It made Gentle Treatment sound like a load of rich gifts, and
the summons to a King’s feast. Then suddenly Niggle felt ashamed. To hear that
he was considered a case for Gentle Treatment overwhelmed him, and made him
blush in the dark. It was like being publicly praised; when you and all the
audience knew that the praise was not deserved.
Niggle hid his blushes in the rough blanket.
There was a silence. Then the First Voice spoke to Niggle,
quite close. “You have been listening,” it said.
“Yes,” said Niggle.
“Well, what do you have to say?”
“Could you tell me about Parish?” said Niggle. “I should
like to see him again. I hope he is not very ill? Can you cure his leg? It used to give him a
wretched time. And please don’t worry about him and me. He was a very good
neighbour, and let me have excellent potatoes very cheap, which saved me a lot
of time.”
“Did he?” said the First Voice. “I am glad to hear it."
Niggle heard the Voices receding. “Well, I agree,” he heard the First Voice say
in the distance. “Let him go on to the next stage. Tomorrow, if you like.”
Niggle woke up to find that his blinds were drawn, and his
little cell was full of sunshine. He got up, and found that some comfortable
clothes had been put out for him, not hospital uniform. After breakfast the
doctor treated his sore hands, putting some salve on them that healed them at
once. He gave Niggle some good advice, and a bottle of tonic (in case he needed
it). In the middle of the morning they gave Niggle a biscuit and a glass of
wine; and then they gave him a ticket.
“You can go to the railway station now,” said the doctor.
“The Porter will look after you. Goodbye.”
Niggle slipped out of the front door, and blinked a little.
The sun was very bright. Also he had expected to walk out into a large town, to
match the size of the station; but he did not. He was on the top of a hill,
green, bare, swept by a keen invigorating wind. Nobody else was about. Away
down under the hill he could see the roof of the station shining.
He walked downhill to the station briskly, but without
hurry. The Porter spotted him at once.
“This way!” he said, and led Niggle to a bay, in which there
was a very pleasant little local train standing: one coach, and a small engine,
both very bright, clean, and newly painted. It looked as if this was their
first run. Even the track that lay in front of the engine looked new: the rails
shone, the chairs were painted green, and the sleepers gave off a delicious
smell of fresh tar in the warm sunshine. The coach was empty.
“Where does this train go, Porter?” asked Niggle.
“I don’t think they have fixed its name yet,” said the
Porter. “But you’ll find it all right.” He shut the door.
The train moved off at once. Niggle lay back in his seat.
The little engine puffed along in a deep cutting with high green banks, roofed
with blue sky. It did not seem very long before the engine gave a whistle, the
brakes were put on, and the train stopped. There was no station, and no
signboard, only a flight of steps up the green embankment. At the top of the
steps there was a wicket-gate in a trim hedge. By the gate stood his bicycle;
at least, it looked like his, and there was a yellow label tied to the bars
with NIGGLE written on it in large black letters.
Niggle pushed open the gate, jumped on the bicycle, and went
bowling downhill in the spring sunshine.
Before long he found the path on which he had started had
disappeared, and the bicycle was rolling along over marvellous turf. It was
green and close; and yet he could see every blade distinctly. He seemed to
remember having seen or dreamed of that sweep of grass somewhere or other. The
curves of the land were familiar somehow. Yes: the ground was becoming level,
as it should, and now, of course, it was beginning to rise again. A great green
shadow came between him and the sun. Niggle looked up, and fell off his
bicycle.
Before him stood the Tree, his Tree, finished. If you could
say that of a Tree that was alive, its leaves opening, its branches growing and
bending in the wind that Niggle had so often felt or guessed, and had so often
failed to catch. He gazed at the Tree, and slowly he lifted his arms and opened
them wide.
“It’s a gift!” he said. He was referring to his art, and
also to the result; but he was using the word quite literally.
He went on looking at the Tree. All the leaves he had ever
laboured at were there, as he had imagined them rather than as he had made
them; and there were others that had only budded in his mind, and many that
might have budded, if only he had had time. Nothing was written on them, they
were just exquisite leaves, yet they were dated as clear as a calendar. Some of
the most beautiful and the most characteristic, the most perfect examples of
the Niggle style were seen to have been produced in collaboration with Mr.
Parish: there was no other way of putting it.
The birds were building in the Tree. Astonishing birds: how
they sang! They were mating, hatching, growing wings, and flying away singing
into the Forest, even while he looked at them. For now he saw that the Forest
was there too, opening out on either side, and marching away into the distance.
The Mountains were glimmering far away.
After a time Niggle turned towards the Forest. Not because
he was tired of the Tree, but he seemed to have got it all clear in his mind
now, and was aware of it, and of its growth, even when he was not looking at
it. As he walked away, he discovered an odd thing: the Forest, of course, was a
distant Forest, yes he could approach it, even enter it, without it losing that
particular charm. He had never before been able to walk into the distance
without turning it into mere surroundings. It really added a considerable
attraction to walking in the country, because, as you walked, new distances
opened out; so that you now had doubled, treble, and quadruple distances,
doubly, trebly, and quadruply enchanting. You could go on and on, and have a
whole country in a garden, or in a picture (if you preferred to call it that).
You could go on and on, but not perhaps for ever. There were the Mountains in
the background. They did get nearer, very slowly. They did not seem to belong
to the picture, or only as a link to something else, a glimpse through the
trees of something different, a further stage: another picture.
Niggle walked about, but he was not merely pottering. He was
looking round carefully. The Tree was finished, though not finished with. “Just
the other way about to what it used to be,” he thought – but in the Forest
there were a number of inconclusive regions, that still needed work and
thought. Nothing needed altering any longer, nothing was wrong, as far as it
had gone, but it needed continuing up to a definite point. Niggle saw the point
precisely, in each case. He sat down under a very beautiful distant tree – a
variation of the Great Tree, but quite individual, or it would be with a little
more attention – and he considered where to begin work, and where to end it,
and how much time was required. He could not work out his scheme.
“Of course!” he said. “What I need is Parish. There are lots
of things about earth, plants, and trees that he knows and I don’t. This place
cannot be left just as my private park. I need help and advice: I ought to have
got it sooner.”
He got up and walked to the place where he had decided to
begin work. He took off his coat. Then, down in a little sheltered hollow
hidden from a further view, he saw a man looking round rather bewildered. He
was leaning on a spade, but plainly did not know what to do. Niggle hailed him.
“Parish!” he called.
Parish shouldered his spade and came up to him. He still
limped a little. They did not speak, just nodded as they used to do, passing in
the lane; but now they walked about together, arm in arm. Without talking,
Niggle and Parish agreed exactly where to make the small house and garden,
which seemed to be required.
As they worked together, it became plain that Niggle was now
the better of the two at ordering his time and getting things done. Oddly
enough, it was Niggle who became the most absorbed in building and gardening,
while Parish often wandered looking at trees, and especially at the Tree.
One day Niggle was busy planting a quickset hedge, and
Parish was lying on the grass nearby, looking attentively at a beautiful and
shapely little yellow flower growing in the green turf. Niggle had put a lot of
them among the roots of his Tree long ago. Suddenly Parish looked up: his face
was glistening in the sun, and he was smiling.
“This is grand!” he said. “ I oughtn’t to be here , really.
Thank you for putting in a word for me.”
“Nonsense,” said Niggle. “I don’t remember what I said, but
anyway it was not nearly enough.”
“Oh yes, it was,” said Parish. “It got me out a lot sooner.
That Second Voice, you know: he had me sent here; he said you had asked to see
me. I owe it to you.”
“No. You owe it to the Second Voice,” said Niggle. “We both
do.”
They went on living and working together: I do not know how
long. It is no use denying that at first they occasionally disagreed,
especially when they got tired. For at first they did sometimes get tired. They
found that they had both been provided with tonics. Each bottle had the same
label: A few drops to be taken in water from the Spring, before resting.
They found the Spring
in the heart of the Forest; only once long ago had Niggle imagined it, but he
had never drawn it. Now he perceived that it was the source of the lake that
glimmered, far away and the nourishment of all that grew in the country. The few
drops made the water astringent, rather bitter, but invigorating; and it
cleared the head. After drinking they rested alone; and then they got up again
and things went on merrily. At such times Niggle would think of wonderful new
flowers and plants, and Parish always knew exactly how to set them and where
they would do best. Long before the tonics were finished they had ceased to
need them. Parish lost his limp.
As their work drew to an end they allowed themselves more
and more time for walking about, looking at the trees, and the flowers, and the
lights and shapes, and the lie of the land. Sometimes they sang together; but
Niggle found that he was now beginning to turn his eyes, more and more often,
towards the Mountains.
The time came when the house in the hollow, the garden, the
grass, the forest, the lake, and all the country was nearly complete, in its
own proper fashion. The Great Tree was in full blossom.
“We shall finish this evening,” said Parish one day. “After
that we will go for a really long walk.”
They set out next day, and they walked until they came right
through the distances to the Edge. It was not visible, of course; there was no
line, or fence, or wall; but they knew that they had come to the margin of that
country. They saw a man, he looked like a shepherd; he was walking towards
them, down the grass slopes that led up into the Mountains.
“Do you want a guide?” he asked. “Do you want to go on?”
For a moment a shadow fell between Niggle and Parish, for
Niggle knew that he did now want to go on, and (in a sense) ought to go on; but
Parish did not want to go on, and was not yet ready to go.
“I must wait for my wife,” said Parish to Niggle. “She’d be
lonely. I rather gathered that they would send her after me, some time or
other, when she was ready, and when I had got things ready for her. The house is
finished now, as well as we could make it; but I should like to show it to her.
She’ll be able to make it better, I expect: more homely. I hope she’ll like
this country, too.” He turned to the Shepherd. “Are you a guide?” he asked. “Could
you tell me the name of this country?”
“Don’t you know?” said the man. “It’s Niggle’s Country. It is
Niggle’s picture, or most of it: a little of it is now Parish’s Garden.”
“Niggle’s Picture!” said Parish in astonishment. “Did you
think of all this, Niggle? I never knew you were so clever. Why didn’t you tell
me?”
“He tried telling you long ago,” said the man, “but you
would not look. He had only got canvas and paint in those days, and you wanted
to mend your roof with them. This is what you and your wife used to call Nigger’s
Nonsense, or That Daubing.”
“But it did not look like this then, not real,” said
Parish.
“No, it was only a glimpse then,” said the man, “but you
might have caught the glimpse, if you had ever thought it worthwhile to try.”
“I did not give you much chance,” said Niggle. “I never
tried to explain. I used to call you Old Earth-grubber. But what does it
matter? We have lived and worked together now. Things might have been different,
but they could not have been better. All the same, I am afraid I shall have to
be going on. We shall meet again, I expect: there must be many more things we
can do together. Goodbye!” He shook Parish’s hand warmly: a good, firm, honest
hand it seemed. He turned and looked back for a moment. The blossom on the
Great Tree was shining like flame. All the birds were flying in the air and
singing. Then he smiled, and nodded to Parish, and went off with the Shepherd.
He was going to learn about sheep, and the high pastures,
and look at a wider sky, and walk even further and further towards the
Mountains, always uphill. Beyond that I cannot guess what became of him. Even
little Niggle in his old home could glimpse the Mountains far away, and they
got into the borders of his picture; but what they are really like, and what
lies beyond them, only those can say who have climbed them.
“I think he was a silly little man,” said Councillor
Tompkins. “Worthless, in fact; no use to Society at all.”
“Oh, I don’t know,” said Atkins, who was nobody of
importance, just a schoolmaster. “I am not so sure: it depends on what you mean
by use.”
“No practical or economic use,” said Tompkins. “I dare say
he could have been made into a serviceable cog of some sort, if you
schoolmasters knew your business. But you don’t, and so we get useless people
of his sort. If I ran this country I should put him and his like to some job that
they’re fit for, washing dishes in a communal kitchen or something, and I
should see that they did it properly. Or I would put them away. I should have
put him away long ago.”
“Put him away? You mean you’d have made him start on the
journey before his time?”
“Yes, if you must use that meaningless old expression. Push
him through the tunnel into the great Rubbish Heap: that’s what I mean.”
“Then you don’t think painting is worth anything, not worth
preserving, or improving, or even making use, on.”
“Of course, painting has uses,” said Tompkins. “But you
couldn’t make use of his painting. There is plenty of scope for bold young men
not afraid of new ideas and new methods. None for this old-fashioned stuff.
Private daydreaming. He could not have designed a telling poster to save his
life. Always fiddling with leaves and flowers. I asked him why, once. He said
he thought they were pretty! Can you believe it? He said pretty. ‘What,
digestive and genital organs of plants?’ I said to him; and he had nothing to
answer. Silly footler.”
“Footler,” sighed Atkins. “Yes, poor little man, he never
finished anything. Ah well, his canvases have been put to ‘better uses,’ since
he went. But I am not sure, Tompkins. You remember that large one, the one they
used to parch the damaged house next door to his, after the gales and floods? I
found a corner of it torn off, lying in a field. It was damaged, but legible: a
mountain peak and a spray of leaves. I can’t get it out of my mind.”
“Out of your what?” said Tompkins.
“Who are you two talking about?” said Perkins, intervening
in the cause of peace. Atkins had flushed rather red.
“The name’s not worth repeating,” said Tompkins. “I don’t
know why we are talking about him at all. He did not live in the town.”
“No,” said Atkins, “but you had your eye on his house, all
the same. That is why you used to go and call, and sneer at him while drinking
his tea. Well, you’ve got his house now, as well as the one in town, so you
need not grudge him his name. We were talking about Niggle, if you want to
know, Perkins.”
“Oh, poor little Niggle!” said Perkins. “Never knew he
painted.”
That was probably the last time Niggle’s name ever came up
in conversation. However, Atkins preserved the odd corner. Most of it crumbled;
but one beautiful leaf remained intact. Atkins had it framed. Later he left it
to the Town Museum, and for a long while “Leaf by Niggle” hung there in a
recess, and was noticed by a few eyes. But eventually the Museum was burnt
down, and the leaf, and Niggle, were entirely forgotten in his old country.
“It is proving very useful indeed,” said the Second Voice. “As
a holiday, and a refreshment. It is splendid for convalescence; and not only
for that, for many it is the best introduction to the Mountains. It works
wonders in some cases. I am sending more and more there. They seldom have to
come back.”
“No, that is so,” said the First Voice. “I think we shall
have to give the region a name. What do you propose?”
“The Porter settled that some time ago,” said the Second
Voice. “Train for Niggle’s Parish in the bay: he has shouted that for a
long while now. Niggle’s Parish. I sent
a message to both of them to tell them.”
“What did they say?”
“They both laughed. Laughed – the Mountains rang with it!”
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